You

I can't talk to you anymore, it's not that I am mad at you, it's just that when I talk to you I realize how much I love you and when I realize how much I love you, I realize I can't have you and that makes me love you even more.

Me, I'm scared of everything, I'm scared of who I am, what I saw, what I did, but most of all I am scared of walking out of this room and never feeling for the rest of my life, the way I feel when I'm with you.

If I hadn't met you, I wouldn't like you. If I hadn't liked you, I wouldn't love you. If I wouldn't love you, I wouldn't miss you. But I did, I do and I will.

Ask me why I keep on loving you when it's clear that you don't feel the same way for me... the problem is that as much as I can't force you to love me, I can't force myself to stop loving you ..

I'm sorry for crying over you , because I said I wouldn't.

But I didn't promise you that , because I knew it would be a promise

I would never be able to keep ..

Everyone tells me I should forget about you, you don't deserve me. They're right, you don't deserve me, but I deserve you ..

I'm not supposed to love you , I'm not supposed to care , I'm not supposed to live my life wishing you were there. I'm not supposed to wonder where you are or what you're doing, but I can't help it , cause I'm in love with you ..

Galau

saya bingung ..

bingung masalah sponsor yang pihak partisipan.nya ga kunjung memberi kabar ..

dihubungi jawabnya masih belum ..

*acapelakurang2minggu !

isi kepala rasanya berantakan sekali , skala prioritas saya ga jalan .. #dumbmode:on

hey ! ada yang mau memberi saya pencerahan ga ?? #foolishnessbegins

rasanya seperti masuk dalam adonan kue yang sedang dimixer , jadi rasanya mabok ga jelas gitu.

dimana satu masalah belum selesai , uda ketambahan masalah lain .. #gimananyetopnyacoba??

memang bagi orang cerdas mungkin ini masuk kategori masalah sepele , tapi sepertinya saya tidak secerdas itu dan otak saya seperti membeku , belum menemukan way out untuk masalah masalah saya .

entah memang kebodohan saya , saya sering mengalami kegalauan yang tidak jelas tetapi saya tidak kunjung kebal terhadapnya .

untung sekarang liburan sehingga yang merasakan kegalauan saya hanya saya dan bukan teman teman saya ..

*padahalbiasanyasayamelibatkantemantemansaya

apakah otak saya lagi macet ? saya sepertinya sedang tidak bisa berpikir rasional sekarang ..

ada yang bisa menuntun saya menyelesaikan masalah saya tidak ? saya butuh bantuan sekarang . sebelum saya mulai bertindak bodoh dan bersikap sulit ..

saya pasti sudah gila ..

about you now

 

It was so easy that night,
Should have been strong, yeah I lied,
Nobody gets me like you,

I know everything changes,
All the cities and faces,
But I know how I feel about you,

Can we bring yesterday back around,
'Cus I know how I feel about you now,
I was dumb, I was wrong, I let you down,
But I know how I feel about you now

All that it takes one more chance,
Don't let our last kiss be our last,
Give me tonight and I'll show you

I know everything changes,
I don't care where it takes us,
'Cus I know how I feel about you

Can we bring yesterday back around,
'Cus I know how I feel about you now,
I was dumb, I was wrong, I let you down,
But I know how I feel about you now

Not a day pass me by,
Not a day pass me by,
When I don't think about you,
And there's no moving on,
'Cus I know your the one,
And I can't be without you

Can we bring yesterday back around,
'Cus I know how I feel about you now,
I was dumb, I was wrong, I let you down,
But I know how I feel about you now

Can we bring yesterday back around,
'Cus I know how I feel about you now,
I was dumb, I was wrong, I let you down,
But I know how I feel about you now

But I know how I feel about you now

Yes I know how I feel about you now 

*sugababes - about you now*