Special *this kind of love-broken expression does still exist*

Did we really love? Or was it just a long war?

At the tangled memories, I smile and I cry

More than any of the good memories with anyone else

I miss the times I spent with you, I want you so I’m stewing in sickness

If love is measured by how much one was in pain

Then you were a love that I won’t ever have again

Even if it’s in this way, even if it became a scar

Thank you for settling inside of me

You are, you are, you a-are so special to me.

I guess this is goodbye (we died), I guess this is lingering attachment

It’s a worse sickness than love or obsession

It seemed like you would spread like a bruise and completely disappear

But you’re a deep wound that will grow along with me forever

If you are breathing in my tears, I won’t let them dry

If you’re still squirming in my scar, I won’t let it heal

Even if it hurts, it’s okay if it’s you

Even if they are sad memories, it’s okay if they’re mine

Even if it’s not happiness, even if it is unhappiness

Because it’s a gift you gave me, I thank you

Even though I hate you to death, I thank you

I’m not afraid of loving again and being hurt again

Because no one could hurt me as much as you did, no

Precious you

If love is measured by how much one was in pain

Then you were a love that I won’t ever have again

Even if it’s in this way, even if I will regret it

Thank you for remaining in me

You are, you are, you a-are so special to me.

(First you made my heart beat. Then you beat my heart.)

You are, you are, you a-are so special to me.

(First you made my heart beat).