Mirrors

"Cause I don't wanna lose you now
I'm lookin' right at the other half of me"

Oke, in progreessing doing journal with with this song playing. Literally, i'm not getting inspired with this song's playing but seems like this song is a kinda mood booster to me. Now i'm stopping journaling and just listening to this song. I got the meaning of this song, but since i don't have somone who can be truly my 'mirror' so i consider the shadow is as myself.

I'm figuring out myself everytime i look at myself through my mirror, whom else i can see beside me ? Another ordinary girl that exist in this world. I'm not trying to get appreciate from around but i wonder how can i do to this world, to the people who admit my existence, to show some gratitudes to them because they keep me around. People say that everyone whom exist in this world has their own meaning and make the world different if they don't exist. But i wonder how if i'm not exist ? What difference would happen in this world ? To the people around me ? I wonder too, how about every baby whom die in a few days after their born, or maybe whom die before even was borned. The mother whom doing abortion because her baby's existence is not so admirable ? How if they survive, being a teen, an adult, what can they do to the world ? Imagine, that this world will be more beautiful if they exist.

"Even if the humans do our best, human's territory and God's territory are separate and different"  ~ Lee Sang Shik - Obstetrics and Gynecology Doctors
 Well, it's enough to prove that how hard we think about the death and born fate, there's nothing we can change about it. All i can do is just being grateful because i've given life untill now, how the world stays beautiful at the morning and at night. As long as i can still look up to the sky and it calms me down, the world is still beautiful.

But still, everytime i look in the mirror, i still see another ordinary girl whom wondering what she can does to this beautiful world